ok, i think perhaps i lied when i said i would start posting daily again. well, to err is human. somehow, im even more busy in miri during the holidays than i was in spore when it wasnt holidays. I dont know what im so busy with though. Driving all around, watching movies, just wasting time i guess. not so bad eh? especially when u do all that in miri. oh, miri! its heaven for everyone. Good thing very few know about miri. otherwise it'll be spoilt. hehe.
So i watched "mukhsin" today. Malay movie. But wait, before u go on thinking "what?!? why is he even watching malay movies??", this is something different. It's not like the usual malay movies where it revolves around the higher class, with actors acting like theyre actors, and plots that betray reality. "Mukhsin" is something else. For one, its not a malay movie, its a Malaysian movie. Like my other posts about movies, im not going to spoil anything for you, but trust me, watch "mukhsin", you'll be wanting more.
I've been thinking. The thought of moving halfway around the globe is kind of terrifying, after already lived not too far away for half a year. I mean, i wont be able to come back as often as i did and want, telecommunication costs would be murderous, and i would be awake when everyone is asleep and asleep when everyone is awake. But perhaps what really terrifies (or terrified) me was the thought of being oh so far away from all those im familiar with. But like i said, i've been thinking. I'm not about to let my past hold me back. Thats not how its supposed to work. The future is always forboding, the present is always a half-opened present, and the past is always best. But why must it be like that? Why cant the future be better than the present, and the present better than the past? We usually realize that it actually is, after the present becomes the past and the future becomes the present. By then, its too late, and we savour only the memories. I guess its because we cling on to the past, and always imagine it to be the best part of our lives. ladies and gentlemen, no more! I'm going to look forward, and i'm going to look back. Behind me are the moments i cherish most, and when i look forward, i'll know, that ahead lies wonders that will marvel! Live life to the fullest - i know now that it merely means live life in the present, and stop living off memories, for the time will always come for us to pick on the memories we set out to gather.
for now, i think this is all im going to write. i dare not promise frequent posts again, for i fear it might be broken, but i will, to the best of this ability, do the best i can. =)
masa al khair~
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2 comments:
Amin..
What you said about the past present and the future actually speaks most of what we are going through now. I found, that recently, i am a man who lives in the past and only savouring the moments we HAD, and not the times we are GOING to have. And yes, its not supposed to be the case, but i have to say, for most of the times, i fail to make myself enjoy the present to the fullest. For me it seems that, yes, the future is ever so foreboding..
Same goes for me. And i cant tell u how much i regret not enjoying the present to the fullest at times, and all because i savour "the moments we had", as u put it. i guess, at some point, we all come to realize this. its just a matter of whether we take any actions or not. lets not repeat our mistakes.
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