the beauty of life

today was rather boring. i got out of bed quite late - relatively, to my recent habits, at least. There wasnt any food for lunch, so i didnt have lunch. i stayed home today, didnt have much to do. all i did was watch tv and go online. what more can u do when ur at home? going to watch spiderman tomorrow though, so kinda looking forward to that. quite a lot have watched it, so yea, im just anxious to see this movie that everyone says is so good. im sure it is, so, yea.. tick, tock, tick, tock.. time cant move any faster than now, even if it does, its just in the mind. dont u agree? time moves so fast when u want it to go slow, and it moves so slow when u want it to go fast. but right now, its moving at its normal pace for me, because i want it to go faster and to slow down at the same time. so i guess it got kind of confused, so time gave up on trying to confuse me. smart, dont u think? i beat time!

but time, its really something very complicated - then again, everything is complicated once u start to think about it, but just for the sake of this post, i'll just say "time is complicated". I mean, imagine, once it has passed, once the clock has ticked, it can never go back again. unless, of course, u turn the dial the other way round, but thats another story, for another day, when im really out of ideas to write. ah, see, now i can sense that u guys are just edging on ur seats, waiting for that story. dont worry, the day'll come. time will pass, and time will come, and time will never go away. see, now that there is proof of what i was saying, how complicated time is. how can the same thing that never happens twice, come again after it has passed? and how can it come AGAIN, if it can never go away? i dont know whether this is just the complicity of time, or a defunct of the language. ah, theres another topic - defunct of the language. again, another topic for another day, have patience, dear readers. trust in fate, and let time decide.

ok, back to business, about time. think back into ur past. think about the decisions uve made, actions uve done, words uve said. how many times have u regretted doing something uve done? how u wish u could go back into time and undo what u did. and how many times have u come to realize the vicious mercilessness of time. lifetimes pass, people pass on, and people live on. the living mourn the dead, mourning what they should have done with the deseased, mourning what they did and didnt do. maybe thats a curse of life. people dont regret until its too late. but maybe thats why they call it regret, because its too late. why is it too latE? because time never turns.

perhaps, time isnt so complicated after all. perhaps, its just us, people, humans, beings, who make life so complicated. "live life to the fullest", practically everyone has heard of that expression. "this is it", is something that less have heard of, but makes about the same sense. people complain about what they didnt or did do. But thats just it, dont waste time. the mysteries of time is unraveled with just a few words (i doubt to add "of wisdom") - dont waste time. Live life at the present. forget the past, live the present, plan the future. and dont just nod ur head in realization when u think about it, apply it, right now. i know its much harder to do than say. i need more practice myself. but i just feel like saying it. perhaps it'll help me more in my application, who knows?

time.. when we do look back, make sure its with a smile, fondly remembering all the good times we had, the laughter we shared, the times we shared, good and bad.. time, though frustrating at times, is what makes life, and every single second, so precious and beautiful, because every second is a new and different second. ah.. the beauty of life..