center of the universe

Curse the creature that has shamelessly invaded my peaceful and innocent laptop. Spare the young! or perhaps its just overwork. it seems to be malfunctioning, and its getting worse. last week it was just the sound. now its starting to lag, and its starting to crash as well. i dare not go into msn, because the moment i do, it starts to go all haywire. and it took me great pain and care to get to my blog, holding my breathe in case, just in case, a sigh can make it decide to just stop.

i went to vivo city again today. as i got off the bus, i started to wonder why is it that i have been going to that place so often lately. thrice in 3 weeks. wait, make that 4. i guess because its near my place, and also because there are a lot of things there. the cinema there is awesome. i mean, the seats are comfortable, the walls are curtained, the screen is crystal clear. and from the outside, u can just see the lounge for the Golden Class. i want to watch via the Golden Class, but, well, i guess i just have to wait and see. Time pass really fast. 5 months ago i just came, and now i have one week till i leave for home. Home! Btw, i got a haircut today. looks about the same, but yea. at least its not as irritating as it was before.

met up with joseph and chen pong again today. michelle chin is here for 2 nights, on transit from miri to thailand. So we met up with her at bugis. i didnt have the appetite, i dont know why. i was hungry, but then end up just wanting to have the ais kacang. ah, ais kacang, the malaysian delight. there are few things that can delight a person and excite his buds than malaysian food - unarguably the best in the world. ;) and chen pong was right. after i graduate, i'll start a restaurant chain. But a bit different though. not just miri food, as he put it. malaysian cuisine. and not just in singapore. its going to be the next mcDonald's. another far-fetched dream of mine, but, yea. Lots to do in life, and not enough time. But it will happen. i'll make it happen, insyaAllah.

I really do have absurb dreams and goals - i've been told numerous times. But then again, one can never aim too big nor too high. Aim for the stars, because then, even if u miss, u land among the clouds. and everything starts from a dream.

you know, it's really weird, when u think about, to realize that the universe doesnt center on u. not being selfish or full of myself. But i mean, just think about it. Your whole life, everything you do, you are so eerily aware of. but then, you look around you, and you - i, at least - wonder, everyone else doesnt look at my life the way i look at it. To me, they're just someone else. I don't know whats going on in their minds, and they dont know, nor do thy even bother, about what goes on in mine. and then you try to imagine how it's like being someone else. it's hard, its complicated, its weird. You cannot imagine looking at yourself as someone else. to people, you might just be those people passing behind you who you dont even bother to look at. How insignificant we each are. But then, at the same time, its the difference in each of us that makes it all work. we all contribute to life, whether or not people, or even ourselves, realize. nothing we do involved just us. when we smoke, its not just us causing harm to us, its us becoming that annoying person who smokes in public places, the person who makes us block our noses as we pass. its just so amazing and so.. complicated, so fascinating.